4 a.m

Ode to insomnia. This is the third night that I haven't slept. I could no longer just lay there staring at the pattern of light coming through the bamboo blinds. Yet, I don't want to be at this over-bright screen either. I talked to Ev for a long time on the phone. He hasn't slept for 5 days. I wonder if we are somehow channeling each other's sleeplessness, invading one another's thoughts. Perhaps this is the edge of some psychotic breakdown. I have been sick for the last few days and completely devoid of energy. The days have turned into a mad little hamster run. I can't stop the wheel and am nauseated from trying.